Alive in the Spirit

(Note Before You Read. This reflection was born out of a quiet, painful season in my past where God asks me to let go a person, I never thought I’d release. Here's my reflection, written as if God is speaking to me in a gentle, heartfelt, and deeply personal tone. For those who are in the season of letting go, I hope you find something here that encourages you.)

Long time ago, the revelation and Word I gave you about your situation with that person now echoes your heart that you and I can fully understood. At that moment, I led you to John 11, and while you read, I gently drew your attention to verse 44: “Untie him and let him go.” I kept emphasizing that verse for a reason because it was your season of release- a time of surrender, even if you felt it didn’t make complete sense.

But in truth, the purpose of it all was always in verse 4: “This sickness will not end in death; no, it is for the glory of God..” dropping four and made your eyes fixed to that one 4. I know it is only now, in silence, and so fitting to use. That verse has quietly waited for this moment. And now, as your eyes are drawn to that passage again, it speaks more clearly than ever before. That “sickness” – the weight, the heartbreak, the silence, the mystery – it was never unto death. It was for My glory.

The Voice that called Lazarus out of death is the same Voice that called you to let go. That release wasn’t just about you freeing him. It was also about Me freeing you from what would have devoured you if you had held on. When you responded to My heart’s command and surrendered, death was rebuked. With My loving gaze in your waiting, it’s meaningful to say, “Your friendship, will not end in death. It only had to happen this way so that My glory could be revealed.”

You needed to let him go back then, not because it wasn’t love but because I was unfolding a greater plan you couldn’t see yet. A plan that was beyond your understanding. One that was meant not just for the two of you, but also to those around you, and it was far more purposeful than the future you were holding on to.

To guide you further, and while you navigate My purpose for it, I brought you to meditate Romans 8:5: “Those who live according to the flesh have their minds set on what the flesh desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires.” That verse gripped your heart. You were like a student in awe, even though the lesson was hard to understand, slowly grasping something difficult yet important.

Because if the flesh had its way, you would still be together today.

But with a long, quiet journey of obedience, only now can I begin to show why “this” should not lead to death. What seemed like an ending was never meant for destruction, but for the revealing of My glory. That’s why, even now, despite the distance, despite the silence, both of you remain alive (living) in the Spirit. You may have mourned what seems lost, but I was nurturing what is eternal.

And yet I see some sort of sadness in your heart because of that timely encountered with him. I see the ache. But My grace is enough. More than enough to open your eyes to the beauty of what’s really happening, that your spirit is being made alive every time you choose to surrender your will. Every time you pray, run, or come to Me with your questions, I’m not only listening, but I’m also strengthening your spirit. I’m silencing the lie that there is no hope and future for yourself.

For now, it may not yet fully satisfy the reason why I had to separate you back then. But the truth is, you can’t question the way I did it, because I was working out on something deeper, something you’re beginning to glimpse and later on will understand. No, it didn’t happen in the way you imagined or hoped. But that’s okay, because what’s unfolding now is not your version of life, it’s My life being lived in you both.