Hands to Heaven

In the hush of dream’s embrace, I saw him again. still and distant, I followed his gaze, and there I was on stage, Singing, glowing, dressed just like him, as if once- we were one. He didn’t look at me. He looked at her - the me on stage, the one with a cap pulled low, like a crown of becoming. And I, the third me, watched them both from somewhere in-between memory and meaning. We wore the same skin, the same simple clothes. But only I wore the song. Was he proud? Was he sorry? Was I? I felt it - this ache without anger, a warmth that wasn’t quite love, but something soft and almost sacred. Three selves in one dream: the girl who loved, the girl who rose, and the girl who watches it all unfold, quietly learning how to let go.

Perhaps you're wanting to start a new ministry, perhaps you're wanting to apply to another job or perhaps you wanted to get serious with someone you really like. Whatever it may be, there are seasons that God may tell us we are not ready but then later on, He will let us know when we are ready. These are my common realizations in the waiting as I traced God's way of telling me or encouraging me to do something new or start stepping into the unfamiliar place. If you're one of my closest, you know that I'm the type of person who won't do something if I know I'm not ready, or I didn't prepare myself for it. That's why I think carefully before writing this piece, because we have different personalities, levels of spiritual discernment, and of course God can speak to us in various ways. These realizations I share are based on my own experience, discernment, and meditation of The Word in connection of some events in the past where I strongly sensed God tel...

Sea of Galilee O pinions on fake news is getting worse, misinformation in social media rapidly circulates.  People are excessively concern of themselves and malicious comments are trending online. I've sensed so much hate, I've heard a lot of demands. This brought me to pause and dropped my phone and shut it off. I'm done praying when I grabbed my Bible to read.  The Holy Spirit took me to 1 Corinthians 13:4-13 and it recites the verses of love. I can always read this passage again and again because the word love is so rich and true. Words can't express enough, totally powerful, ineffable. He illuminates verse 7, "Love never gives up, and its faith, hope and patience never fail." Love perfectly describes as eternal. Spurgeon once preached, "God is a sun that never sets." Indeed, the picture of the Cross is the best demonstration of love and truth, because it is love, not nails, what held Jesus on that cross and His love surpassed death because it doe...

My Encounter with Jehovah Rapha in Israel Even now, as I sit and reflect on everything that happened during my time in Israel, one truth remains clear and deeply amplified in my heart: He is seated powerfully on His throne, and nothing, absolutely nothing catches Him by surprise. With the loving gaze of the Lord, I came to Israel ready  physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.  In the months leading up to the trip, I committed to setting aside days of prayer and fasting . Along with that, I also formed a prayer circle of women close to my heart-  sisters in the faith whom I trusted. I kept them updated and asked them to be my prayer shield while I was on the mission field. Their intercession covered me in ways I would only fully realize once I was there, facing unexpected challenges and breakthroughs.  I packed comfortable clothes, took vitamins, got my flu booster shots. I thought I had prepared myself well for the rigors of ministry, travel, and long d...

  While zipping up my luggage in the morning of Saturday (Oct 7), prepping for my evening flight back to Manila, we're all waiting for breakfast, and before we jump in the bus for that  one last BBQ fellowship with all the International Christian Embassy Jerusalem (ICEJ) Feast volunteers, a sudden sound of wailing sirens and bombing from afar stopped us, then a loud cry requesting us to run to the nearest bomb shelter! All of us in the hotel felt perplexed and surprised thinking what’s really happening!  But what surely amazes me was despite of that announcement, I NEVER felt fear, what was on my mind was the safety of everybody, I powerfully sensed the comfort of the Holy Spirit as He gave me presence of mind and the will to worship with those who are with me no matter what's going on.  As everyone inside the bomb shelter started praying & singing, we could somehow hear the raging helicopters and rockets flying above us, then we learned that Israel was caught co...

I don't know but I feel giddy writing '22 above my journal. Well, Happy New Year! I'm claiming a very God-filled & hopeful 2022 for me and to all the people I love! I am a person who loves planning especially if it is for the family. I had spent months searching for the perfect, budget-friendly hotel to celebrate New Year together with Mom and sister, feast in a sumptuous eat-all-you can buffet while waiting for the New Year's countdown,  all wrapped in the warmth of holiday music and the comfort of each other’s company . Few minutes before midnight, we run outside, and shout into the night  joining the symphony of fireworks that would mark the beginning of the new year ! Each moment sweetly rehearsed in my heart, even now as I savor these first few hours of year 2022.  The Lord intervenes as I wake up in a sudden train of thoughts, "welcoming New Year doesn't have to be loud, flashy, and have all-figured out like where you'll get a good lighting for ph...